5 Years to the Left of Me, 5 Years to the Right of Me

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I’m 25-years old. Even through a quarter-life crisis, I didn’t realize this until now. What I also realize is that I am in the middle of my past and my future. I guess that’s super inaccurate considering I might not live 25 more years. But in the frame of my 20s, 25 is the flagship, the end of an era, and the gateway to a new one.

“Life is full of things you can’t fix, no matter how well-intentioned you are.” — Guillebeau

There are many things I wish I could’ve done much sooner. Or I wish my life thus far had been lived differently. But I can’t change the past. I can only embrace the present and future and do my best with what I have now, not what I had then.

Treavioli through the years

I have done so much living since I turned 25 in September that my 24-year old self would be so proud. So fantastic. Right now, at the time of writing this entry, I am so content in my life. I have no home that’s mine but I have a space to exist and be creative, I have very little money but I have work, and I don’t have a lover but I do have love and make sure to love myself everyday I wake up. It’s important. I am also dreaming of improvements to my current life. I can see it so vividly that I think it’s doable so I’m going after it.

I have a pretty good idea of where my life is going over the next 5 years. A great deal of traveling, maybe even settling down somewhere for a while, but I’ll always try to improve my person. There are a lot of things in my early 20s that I would’ve done differently, but that’s only because I’m more knowledgeable about a lot of things now. If I continue to learn from my mistakes and triumphs and also learn to forgive myself and celebrate life, then I can reach my goal of being happy and content in life.

I’m hoping that at ages 30, 40, and 50 (if I live that long), I will be a stronger and wiser person.

Title in reference to this poem and to this video.

  • http://twitter.com/MomandDem Meghan Fitz

    OH. MY. LORDY! You were the cutest little boy!!!!!!!! I’m dying.

    • http://www.treavioli.com Treavioli

      Don’t die!

  • http://linda.curious-notions.net Linda

    Yes! What Meghan said. Adorable 4 yo Treavor.

    I was recently asked what I’d like to do in 5 years and I never could ever answer that question.

    • http://www.treavioli.com Treavioli

      Thank you! I answered that very question recently. Of course, you may not live up to the answer but in the aim to hit the bullseye we meet interfering winds that guide us to our true target.