May allowed me to start and complete some delayed projects, carry on with my travel goals, continue trying to keep my heart open, flex my design muscles, a big leap in my “music career,” and more milestones.
I took myself out one night to the Inwood to see Five-Year Engagement. It was a great movie, but it shook my core and made me see into a possible future. And it scared me. Thanks to good friends for keeping my head clear. The heart can take control sometimes and have me thinking dreams that can’t come true. I re-focused myself on what I set out to do — being super content.
After BiSC, I realized that I would never be ready to date. So I decided to test the waters and “lightly” date. As soon as I did, something dramatic happened that forced me back into my dating hiatus.
Needless to say, I returned to my focus of not being fearful of being open. Oy.
Overwhelmed by emails everyday for job opportunities, most of which are in Dallas and other areas, not the Pacific Northwest. But I’m still trucking and applying. I also scored some interviews in Seattle. Incredibly excited!
I started a re-design project, and it is fantastic so far.
I started May off with fire! It seemed like the beginning to a series of conferences. First, there was the X-Factor audition in Greensboro, NC. While I was in town, I caught up with Daniel in Raleigh and met his posse. I also checked out the Notre Dame campus, just because. And it was beautiful. Raleigh was beautiful as well. Ironically, North Carolinans were voting for gay rights.
Speaking of inequality, in mid-May I traveled to Las Vegas for BiSC and had a great time meeting other bloggers. It was my second time visiting Las Vegas and just confirmed that Vegas is not my kind of town. If it weren’t BiSC, I probably wouldn’t have had anything to enjoy while I was there, especially since I don’t have boobs. Like I said, I had a great time otherwise.
So many new eats, I don’t even know where to begin so I won’t. Pocky in San Fran, Cheerwine in Raleigh. Foodie Weekend with Stacy was fantastic as usual. Just — ugh, yum.
X-Factor. I learned a lot from my X-Factor experience. I had a great time and it was fantastic, but I realize that a music career via a television show wasn’t my thing. But I broke through a lot of fears and felt like a new version of myself.
I started reading a few books and wasn’t dedicated to any of them as I was with Henrietta Lacks. I also tried reading Hunger Games after seeing the movie and I capped at page 14.
Abstinence: Every week is a test, especially after BiSC and the pool at the Flamingo. Oy. I’ve been incredibly cranky.
What to expect for June 2012: June is another completion month; I’ll be finishing projects, clearing out stuff, traveling throughout the Northwest, adventure adventure adventure!