I’m in between contracts right now, which means I have a lot of time to do everything. Sometimes too much time means I can get distracted by the going-ons online and not stick to my daily routine. Sometimes I put off working out because I think “Oh I should dedicate more time to finishing my portfolio site.” I may sit down, kickstart my servers and begin coding, but then I lose focus with email notifications and bloops from Facebook. So while I was procrastinating on Facebook, I asked my friend Marlon what he was working on and shared what I was doing. I think it’s important to share what you’ve been working with other people, so that you feel motivated to work on your stuff. I enjoy everything I do, but sometimes anxiety and probably fear and lack of focus get in my mind and party like rockstars; trashin’ the place up. So to further my accountability factor, I’m sharing all the Dos with whoever is reading this thing. I’m just going to pretend it’s all of the people I know.
01. Creating a Song
After years of only writing songs and not producing songs, I’m getting my feet wet with a cover of Björk’s “Unravel”. You can hear and download an acapella version at my Soundcloud. Sidenote: “Cerulean Union” is Treavioli is Treavor Wagoner. I’ll explain later.
With this creating a song thing, I get so daunted by everything sometimes. Other times I’m generally excited by finally making noise. I think that’s it; I think I have a fear of making noise. I won’t sing in the apartment because I think someone will break the door down. Sometimes you just gotta say “F*** IT” and make noise.
02. Writing a Book
I announced months ago to people I know that I would be writing a book using this blog as a groundwork for the real deal. I instantly had a lot of ideas and things I wanted to incorporate, but then I ran into a mental block that had me spiraling into over-thinking, and thus, I stalled. I thought “Oh, I shouldn’t write that because it might paint that person in a bad light.” I didn’t touch my notebook for over a month. In my break away from writing, I read a book called Manage Your Day-to-Day, which I’ve mentioned and will mention a thousand times in the future. One of the writers mentioned when he was writing a book about something that could be seen as distasteful by his parents, he would have the same reaction; he would back away from writing until finally he just said “F*** MY PARENTS, I’M WRITING!” So that’s what I’m going to do!
I may not even publish that portion. It may not even make it for this book but another one down the road. But if those things doesn’t come out of me, the rest of the story won’t either. Sometimes you just gotta say “F*** IT” and write the book.
03. Launching a Website
After 8 years, my portfolio site is finally making headway—but slowly. At first it was daunting because I had never developed anything this in-depth on my own before. But the prospect of doing this on my own and knowing I had the ability fueled my way into the progress I’ve made with it. Even if I’m working slow, I’m making good progress. Sometimes I can get distracted by other things, but if I stick to my daily routine and ignore the other things I want to accomplish for a few hours, I can get that sucker out. Sometimes you just gotta say “F*** IT” and code the site.
04. Finding a contract
Anybody who is trying to make their dreams happen eventually run into a contract or the need for one, whether writer, musician, artist, whatever. You’re looking for somebody to pay you for what you do best. I was lucky enough to score a little contract after my visit to Texas in August, but ever since then it’s been tough nailing one down. I’ve been going to interview after interview. Every company loves me, but there’s the issue of budget freezes and the hiring maze. I’m running out of emergency money, and my faith is waning a little bit. Luckily, I have phone calls home and voice notes to Montréal to keep my hope afloat. I know anything is possible, especially with hard work. When I find myself getting discouraged, I find that reserve bottle of Self-Discipline (it’s just water) and I get back to work. Surely, all of this interest in my work is leading to something great. Sometimes you just gotta say “F*** IT” and keep hope alive.
There are some other things I’m working on. Like the FALL LIFT! promotion and discount I have available for my blog friends. I’ve had people approach me in the past asking for help with their blogs, but my plate was full then. So I decided to block out a week to help out my friends. Following my return to blogging, I’ve returned to vlogging. I’ll be uploading videos every Thursday on my YouTube channel. Here’s a vlog I uploaded today.
So, what are YOU working on? Or, what are you NOT working on?